March 3

I talked, and now I feel tired. I speak softly and I am try not to stress my voice chords too much. I expected at least a few people to call me or text me on March 1st, but surprisingly no one did. 

My first words were not profound, as some may had expected. ;)

Another thing I noticed besides being tired from speaking is the speed of my walking. I am walking faster now. I miss silence already. I knew I would. I miss that serenity, my meditating state of mind. I have decided to talk on wednesdays and sundays.  

The reason I feel tired over this past 2 days is because I have subconsiously tried to "catch up" and make up for the "lost time". I felt that similar guilt against my friends. While I was in the shower I played a conversation I recorded yesterday with Jennifer. I didn't talk  for the most part of it, but at the times that I spoke, I wish I hadn't said any of the useless things I said. I think that a good way to evaluate ourselves ( if one desires to) is to tape record what we say and play it the next day. 

I know I have mentioned it earlier but I feel empty.